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my life. [27 Sep 2004|02:43pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | UNderworLd - Dark and Long-Trainspotting soundtrack<3 ] ...i love how life has its unique way of balancing Tess's happiness and depression ...i love how life brings me happiness when its meant to happen,when it wants me to be happy not when i want it. ...i love how i have no idea whats in store for me and at this moment everything and everyone sucks, but it may be completely different in a month, or week or even day. ...i love how all the guys i find myself caring for and being attracted to are even MORE immature and nieve to woman more-so then the ones i try to avoid. ...i love how i dont know where i will be in 5 years, not knowing what i will be ...i love how i want not an average joe silly billy life. i want something big,something different. ...i love that ol' mellancholy feeling..missing the past, scared of the future. isnt life great? Kissed mY (_y_): 4 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

DA HELL U DO [14 Aug 2004|02:55pm] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | Mark Farina - Air Farina(track # 7) ] WIshing i could put myself back into those great moments... thinking of what im going to say to my shitty ass friends (the ones who are mad at me for no fucking reason) wanting to be fullfilled in some way... [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<centernothing [...] happening!!</center>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] WIshing i could put myself back into those great moments... thinking of what im going to say to my shitty ass friends (the ones who are mad at me for no fucking reason) wanting to be fullfilled in some way... <centerNOTHING IS HAPPENING!!</center> i cant tell whether its just me, or is this just how my life is? one big ball of stress/confusion/unfulfillment. do u know that right now everybody is doing SOMETHING? whether it be working, driving, crying, having sex, falling in love, writing, singing, dancing, talking, sleeping, damn someone right now is probably masturbating for all we know. i need mushrooms. badLy. Kissed mY (_y_): 6 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

i get goosebumps when da bassline thumps...suck MC freestyle he had mine 4 lunch [27 Jul 2004|07:48pm] [ mood | relieved ] [ music | ~*~TaLking Heads~*~ ] this will be a quick entry- but LIFE IS TURNING UP!!!!(im comparison to ther awful week i had last week)... after what happened to me, twinkelnbud , and p0th3ad  in Riverside( my stolen car; LONG ASS story. if you know me personally, call me and ill tell you what happened) but either way- my car has been found!!! yayness........Stephanie and myself and operation Europe is indeed underway(we leave in mid august)......i got paid 80 bucks today to give my opinion on nokia cell phones....i got a new kitten her name is Memphis Belle shes the cutest fuzzy kitty ever....AND im going with Chrisser and Kasey Kasem to Tahoe and San Fran next week...*sigh of relief* things are looking up.....my life has way too many HIGHS and LOWS.....oh yes and more cancun pix will be posted....trust me these are good ones....ahhh im just really happy right now. :-D, and as i always say....theres more shit going on, im just rushing right now, and cant remember anything else at the moment. and im a really big SLUUUUTTTTT by the way..... i miss you Sivan!!! xoxo   bluntkilla has all my drum n bass records...you can borrow them, until i say so ;-D Kissed mY (_y_): 3 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

hm....my Life: [25 Jul 2004|02:41pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Mark Farina//Derrick Carter- Phunkie Decknichians ] AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Fin. Kissed mY (_y_): 2 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

a wika wika wikita wak! [17 Jul 2004|05:10pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | Freaky FLow ] take that rewind it back *your name here* got the sound to make ur booty go *WACK* *cheezy electronic trumpet tune* ...oh the nightmarish tunes haunt me YET AGAIN. ahhhhh can someone PLEASE explain to me HOW OR WHY that song even exists???????? Kissed mY (_y_): 1 PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

oh darlin its so sweet [26 Jun 2004|02:33pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | The Trashwomen - Justine ] so maybe things work out the way they are supposed to....THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. EDC is in a few hours, i hope to see some of you there, *cough cough* -__drowning and some others.....i cant wait to shake my ass to some good music finally, things are looking up, im taking medicine now and the whole situation with YOU KNOW WHO aint too bad...he was supposed to go with me to EDC, but instead hes taking me to the beach tomorrow<3 im happy. and i also made him wear my black feather boa, he got SOOO many brownie points for that, makes me want him even more.. Jonhy U`s band is playing Tuesday, that should be interesting- i think hes bitter towards me becuase after we hooked up i ignored him for a week...thats what i get for hooking up with a 30 year old :( im dumb i know. and last but most certainly not least, Stephanie and Myself have made arrangements for Europe, we are leaving mid july and staying 2 weeks in BudaPest,partly in Berlin, a week in Paris and a Week in London and stopping into Amsterdam.....i miss Europe, and i miss my family out there, i cant wait to run amok and party there, along with Steph-0-kneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee yayness. many pictures will be taken tonight, along with many i have taken already, in which those MUST be posted. ill call some of you when im all kinds of fucked up!!!! toodles- for now. ;-D Kissed mY (_y_): PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

HoLy FruiTs! [26 May 2004|01:17am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Andy C - Nightlife cd(awesome!!!) ] whoa. many A great, bad, and confusing things haVE happened{Calilove-a story in its self..shrooms,Helly and Kenrik:),drugs,Roey,hash,80s clubs,hm..i cant recall anymore at the moment..I KNOW THERES MORE}. im too lazy to discuss right now...but for now, for your viewin and groovin pleasure, i give you pictures from the 2nd night in Cancun. i know im a lagger, but suck it; its worth the wait. ( Sex..Drugs..& Mexicans? ) i have other pix from the rave, and other goody events..will be up soon. (when im not lazy) Kissed mY (_y_): 17 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

oh-my-gawwwwwwdd....... [09 May 2004|08:02pm] [ mood | jubilant ] [ music | A Tribe CaLLed Quest - Oh My God ] ...Fuckin Nikki....thats all i have to say. <3 what a crazy bizznatch! Kissed mY (_y_): 5 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

Depression + Sexy Guy = move over Seratonin! [06 May 2004|01:49pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | Nine iNch NaiLs - Into the Void ] I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything. DO IT!!!! or ill hurt you ;-D "Talking to myself all the way to the station Pictures in my head of the final destination All lined up all the ones that aren't allowed to stay Tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away.." Kissed mY (_y_): 17 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

pinch me... [19 Apr 2004|06:42pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Stray Cats strut.. ] I MUST BE DREAMING!!, OR MAYBE JUST BLINDED..? and to edit this FINE entry....420 was fucking insane. my parents were both gone, and i had some good old pals over, little did i know, the Sexy man i am very much infactuated with came over, and we all got naked in my jacuzzi for like 5 hours, shared a HUGE bottle of jaiegermeister(DEERHUNTER!!) and someway, somehow, we all managed to squeeze into my parents shower and bathe. yup, pretty interesting, oh and the next day he got me into his bar while he was working happy hour, and i got 4 free LemoN dRops...all in all, i think something GOOD is forming out this with HIM.....like i said, pinch me, it seems to GOOD TO BE TRUE. <3 <3 Kissed mY (_y_): PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!... [16 Apr 2004|02:16pm] .........to me. *sigh* Kissed mY (_y_): 7 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

first things 1st... [15 Apr 2004|02:08am] [ mood | horny ] [ music | The Misfits - *HoLLywooo00o0oooood* BabyLon ] it is VERY odd that when i was a weee child, i opposed my parents open nudity around the house and mostly...the JACUZZI. i would get upset with them, and make them put clothes back on. but strangeLy enough, as years go by...i start to enjoi this. not around the house persay....but DEFINITELY in the jacuzzi[along with a shot of Kettle one and some herbal]....i will not go in with a swimsuit unless i have a friend over, which isnt usual. i usually go in there really late and i usually like going in by myself, honestly. i guess you can say it makes me wanna have sex in there..BUAHA, already done it in there with the 'Wich, but i want MORE! hm... phew..on the lighter note i have collected an assortment of photos from Cancun..these are from the first night there... ( First night of Madness... ) Kissed mY (_y_): 8 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

the creeten has made HER way back [12 Apr 2004|01:32pm] [ music | Dj Hype - P funk Era ] well well well....looks who's finally gotten her ass out of REJUVENATION(sp?)....yes, thats right....ME! i have much to tell and remember, for the Cancun trip caused major bruises in my brain..when i import all my photos, i will do an entry for each day/night we were there...frankly becuase there r just TOO many pictures for one lj cut....but either way, the purple has gotten lighter in my hair...but ill show you how it looks anyways....here ya go.... ( i am the purple...[and u r the oracle] ) Kissed mY (_y_): 9 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

*pissses pants* [01 Apr 2004|02:19am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | 96 tears. ] well....i leave for the airport in 3 hours.....damnit i cant decide if i should sleep or pull an all nighter...damn....either way im going to take many pictures and get beligerently drunk EVERY-DAY! goodness....the greATEST part of all is knowing that everyone else will be stuck in traffic, or working, or in school....as for me, well...ill be drunk wandering CANcun in my sexy new bikini laying on the baby powder Caribeann sandy beaches (aka very close to paradise..the water that is)...so HAHAHAH to you! no, just kidding...well actually-im not....im just excited....bare with me here..anyways... TRY, TRY TO NOT MISS ME TOOOOOO MUCH! when we meet again.. Tess Kissed mY (_y_): 7 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

Lets swim to the Mooooon..uh huh [22 Mar 2004|06:11pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Beethoven- MoonLight Sonata ] On SUnday i went to the WEstwood Symphony for my Music paper...it was really, REALLY pretty....(and all i have to say is my mom is the fucking best) anyway, the funniest thing happened today, in my music class. there is this IDIOTIC girl who is herendous in my class. she ALWAYS interupts my teacher, and speaks without raising her hand[i personally think thats extremely rude and annoying and disrespecful to the teacher] and the worst part is she giggles and talks while my teacher is playing a piece on the piano or on cd...this ISNT a required class, why is she taking it? fucking dumbass. oh yea, and she'll also just randomly walk out to talk on her cell or meet up with friends outside. shes a joke, i think. anyways, this is what happened; My Music Teacher: OKay, people, the music paper is due wednesday, no later, due the day of the midterm, no later or you'll get no credit. FUCKING STUPID GIRL: [interupts teacher] um...what if the band you want to see is playing AFTER the duedate? oh man. My Music Teacher: this is a piece from Beethoven's 9th symphony, in SOnata form ::inserts cd in cd player, and plays for about 5 minutes:: FUCKING STUPID GIRL: i just want to know, is that actully Beethoven playing on the cd? is it him recorded, or is it someone playing his piece of piano? ::everyone cracks up:: what? its a good question! My Music Teacher: i reallyhope your kidding. HAH....i just think its great. Either she just really wants attention(no matter at WHAT cost) or shes just damn clueless. i ALMOST couldnt even believe she said it....for people who have a passion for music, like myself, its ashamed to share this class with a girl this moronic. Kissed mY (_y_): 7 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

a quick need of advice! [19 Mar 2004|11:23pm] [ mood | curious ] [ music | Technical itch- California Curse(Remix) ] ...eh, just bored when im online i guess. heh. does anybody know of any communities on Livejournal that are based on or all about the color purple? maybe, like oh, obsessions with the color, fashion only in purple, i dont know, something involved all about PURPLE!? hm...just wondering.... gotta Jetttt... catch ya guys on the fLipSide..{or when i get home hungover..or something.} Kissed mY (_y_): PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

yay new icon [16 Mar 2004|01:01pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | my teacher lecturing.. ] 16 days until Cancuuuun! fuck yes Kissed mY (_y_): 11 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

this is NOT bullshit. [15 Mar 2004|08:40pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | People Under the Stairs- Acid Raindrops ] basically, all i can say about my weekend was whoa. basically, friday night i witnessed(almost was dragged into) an ORGY. a FULL ON ORGY.....it gave me many mixed emotions...awkwardness,laughter,a little fightened....although the guy was damn sexy, and he had an english accent which just made me melt..(he moved here from England 2 years ago) i couldnt do more then fool around and make out with him...it was definitely an experience....and the fact that the 2 other girls involved in this, one in which is a good friend of mine...well...it was just...wow. he did give us free shit all night, but damn he was tryin to pimp it, and he was. hah it kind of makes me speechless... it was just a crazy ass friday night. i got home at 9am....the sun was just too much to bare. i felt like i was in some twisted plot from a drug movie or something. i mean sex an d drugs were involved, so it was like that, only reality. hah..he taight more about Qbase though, the same music program im using in my music clas..THANX RICH! i got the miniskirt blues.....<3 Kissed mY (_y_): PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

ta ta turn kitty turn.. [10 Mar 2004|02:09am] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Gene Farris - Visions of the Future <3 ] Way to go, your alter poet is Jack Kerouac, who is by FAR the coolest! Who is Your Alter Poet? brought to you by Quizilla everything, except the coffee house hang out. i think i am a little more fast paced then that! and mmmmm miso soooup ...and P.F. Changs...i really want pf changs...everythings set! im all suited up to go....<3<3 Kissed mY (_y_): 6 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

they got groovy wiggly tails they got horns on their heads... [09 Mar 2004|08:21pm] [ mood | enthralled ] [ music | The Cramps - Creature from the Black Leather Lagoon ] ALL WOMAN ARE BAAAAAAD yup....i am mostly. i think all hot chicks should just run to the store and own a fuckin TAZOR!!! so they can make sure the mexican gardners will stay away when they drive next to you in traffic on the 405!!! ;-D SMC is a hellhole. i love my classes, but leaving an extra 1/2 hour early and still having to run to my class is just ludacris. im starting to park at the airport, and taking the shuttle....less rush, more fat burning! sppeaking of fat burning, the gym makes me sore...nuthin` but a headache. i never post on here as much, my new computer is scaring me and i feel like i have moved into a far away land with no help! ive converted to a new way of life= MAC. its a big world, and im just getting a feel for it...but im still confused, and lonely and....well....i dunno what else i am. and, like i said, i usually prefer writing in my new scetchbook, its more intimate, and more proof of my true self. so the weather in sunny cali has been quite nice. gorgeous skies, when me and OKsana and LIndsAY smoked a few days ago, and the night it like summer....yum yum...CUM? shanoioioioioioioioioioioioiooioioioioiooioioioioiooioioioioiooioioioioio and me and Chrisser went to a new club in downtown....mostly 80s funk and fun music....we held the drinks in my purse and met a delightful el Salvadorian man named Farid. he was stylin, just like Andres dad! teehee...4 long islands and a few Lines of Gratitude later, we are knocking on Samwichs door at 4am all fucked up...it was fun... i took Samwich to work a few days ago, and as usual we fought. it was a pretty big one, but im good at keeping my cool. him on the other hand...but as much as we fight and tell myself "im not taking anymore shit from him, no more no more no more" it doesnt seem to happen. as much as he hurts me, and makes me mad,sad and everything in between....it makes me love him even more....ya, i like other guys.....but i dont love them like i love the Samwich...hes my healing rock, my punci commander 4.0, hes just always there, and i cant see my life without him....ever. these fights we have just make our sex THAT MUCH BETTER everytime.... :) ......Cancun booking in an hour!!!! we are going!!!! this year we are going to be really scandulous and do BAD THINGS TO BAD PEOPLE!!!...we are going to try to sneak some joints into mexico.....we have to see how that works.. i just cant wait to sit in the luke warm water of the Caribean and be drunk on the beach all night long!! its going to be fantabulous!!!!!!.....now if only i can find my tazor...... coooooookkkkkkkeeeeeeeeee *sniff sniff* ohhh nooooo! de Kissed mY (_y_): 5 s PuCkER uP *MUAH*.

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